Hurts and Disappointments
I had an old photo album from high school and college and I scanned the pictures. The pictures are almost 30 years old and they were beginning to fade. I hadnít looked in this album for years. Some pictures made me smile, others brought back sad memories. Hurts and disappointments Iíd felt back then resurfaced. Painful lessons learned that I had pushed back into the dark closet of my mind. Iíd covered them up over the years with happy memories.
Hurts and disappointments donít go away. The intensity fades but you remember your pain. Christians sometimes throw around this saying ďLet go and let God.Ē Itís so trite. Just give your problem to God and let it go. I can do that, I can give my problem to God, but my feelings donít instantly change. Iím not suddenly happy. Some pain never goes away. Parents who lose children or have children incarcerated. That must be like living with a big gaping hole in your heart. I have a cousin whose son was killed and she said things are never normal, heís always missing.
asked my Mom how she dealt with us kids making poor choices as adults. She
told me that she prayed about it, gave it to God, then tried not to think
about it and she would do something to keep busy. Oh Iím sure
psychiatrist would say you need to solve your issues but this works. I
threw away the old photo album, put the photos in a Ziploc bag in a box
and I quit thinking about it. Itís over and done with and that is the
past. Unfortunately itís harder to set aside your emotions when you are
experiencing them first hand. The hurts and disappointments Iím facing
right now are difficult to shove into the corner of my mind and ignore.
They are screaming for my attention. Thatís when I remind myself that I
can only do what I can do and dwelling on these issues does nothing
positive for me. Itís hard; your mind is like a magnet pulled towards
the crisis at hand. So whatís the solution? Let go and let God; trite
yes, but effective. Iím going to pray about it and then get busy doing
"Stop stewing and start doing!" - Denis Waitley